Inner Peace

Insecurity..

Fear..

Impatient..

Lost of confidence..

Uncertainty..

Lost of hope..

They all itches the body and soul..

He doesn't know what exactly is beating his stamina..

But he knows he does not feel the thrill..

It becomes a lot of details..

Details that is paving roads only to complicating things..

But not solving..

This is not what he wants..

This is not what he believes..

There is no inner peace..

There are a lot of questions with uncertain answers..

What is a gift?

A real gift is one that can find a solid answer from deep within..

When he can no longer sit still and think with a clear mind..

It's only clouds overshadowing the logic and emotions..

He needs dreams and desires to follow through..

Nothing's motivating the moment..

He wants not to survive like a slave owing to a master but a freeman capable of giving more than required..

He failed his tasks..

He lost wisdom..

He shrunk back into timid little boy..

He just wants to stay inside the closet when the bogeyman comes looking..

He wishes to shout for help..

But experience tells him reality will hit him back in the guts, the chest and the chin..

With bruises to tell him it's better to face the pain and endure..

Something whispered to him that answers are not required, it is just experience and repetition..

It's a game of numbers..

It seems no matter what you do, eventually it's only a number's game..

So you better make sure you are in something you are passionate about..

So every day turns out to be a blessing..

Surviving is nothing, living is something..

Sometimes anything that falls short of greatness becomes nothing to him..

It seems demeaning and belittling of life..

He's still scared because there's not a solid reason what he fights for living..

But some random dreams..

Dreams that some call overly idealistic..

Perhaps he should focus on doing something he is just gifted in doing and happy doing..

Find time to explore his Juliet..

So Romeo can have Juliet his ultimate motivation to fight and survive..

To live and to feel.

Inner peace..

It always seem so far from achievable..

I personally like this the most. =)

Love,
My Visions My Ideals.