feel~~

as if the harder you try to look the harder you can find..

you just need a purpose..

a purpose to work for..

a purpose to live for..

a purpose to fight for..

you just want to be needed and wanted badly enough just doing what you can naturally master doing..

something you feel good doing..

from 16 years ago when you first asked why am i alive and here existent..

until 5 years ago when you started questioning what is your purpose living..

where do you belong..

where do you want to go and be a part of..

life..

you used to be so happy just being a friend..

you were needed so much just being the person who care to make them smile and be happy..

was so happy knowing that you transformed a bad day into a good day for someone..

then it went disappear with thin air..

where had the smile gone to..

you feel so sad it is time to part..

and you can't say a word..

all you wish to say is you wish it lasted forever..

being the one needed and the one who can put a smile on his face..

"babe, you don't have to grow up if you don't want to. you have me.."

haha that was the dream..

he cried in another dream last night..

by the time he woke up he forgot what was the dream about..

it vanished with the time..

sometimes he wonders what's in the drugs that made people hang on with..

argh forget it.

just live on and do what you're happy doing.

you don't have to be ambitious and highly recognized to be happy and successful.

you are a success when you can name who are the ones who will come to you when you say you need someone..

so that's what you work on.

helping others to find a purpose and a place that gives them the purest smiles you could ever hope for them.

so it infects yours and make you giggle like life is nothing but beautiful..

i love you all who made everyday a better day. ^^ hugz~~