The Answer

The quest has never ended.
You continue pondering and searching.
Questioning, theorizing and testing.
What exactly are you looking for?
What is the missing piece?
What is the craving?
What is the real desire?
What is the true need?
What is the you sleeping inside the physical you?
What is he trying to tell you?
There is a conflict of interest.
There is a huge conflict of rationale and emotional desire.
While the brain is active and trying hard to prove his dominance over actions of the body and emotions of the soul, it failed to understand the very fact that it acts upon emotional appeal fundamentally speaking.
It is the instinctive gut feeling and emotional desire or appeal that gets the rationale of the brain to defend and falsify judgments and reasoning to decisions. It is not the brain that ultimately dictates his actions.
Rationale is perhaps overrated.
This is the age of psychology.
Where almost every research and statistic is vying to point towards how irrational one behaves.
Contradictory to all factual and rational modules, humans fail to act wisely at least as accordance to logical rationale.
So what is my point?
Look at yourself closely in the mirror.
Can you tell the fights you are having between your emotional actions and your rational actions?
Day in day out are you not acting in a way you are expected to in order to be approved and desirable so as to fit in and be appreciated and loved, perhaps in an artificial manner, the way you are expected to.
But deep down there is a sense of misbelonging.
Disassociation.
Something simply does not make sense but rationally there wasn’t a piece suggesting otherwise.
It was merely an intuitive feeling that the missing piece is the vital piece.
We speak and act as though intellect, achievement milestones and proving that we are undeniably the best will get us what we ultimately desire.
While on the other hand ignore the unstable emotional hints the body and soul is trying to signal to us.
We know that when caught unguarded, we act emotionally. Just the way we shop for things that we simply love based on physical appeal, the way we turn back to stare again at something visually stunning, the way we crave for bizarre stories even if there is no truth supporting it, etc.
So what is the point again.
We missed the very fact that we crave for just that little bit more of love and attention for the who we are, not the what we have achieved or capable of delivering!
But the sad fact is we got them so mixed up!
Either because we got so frustrated we decided to follow the general wisdom of fighting for pride and recognition which will naturally lead to rewards and then what we deserve.
Or we just want to blindsight ourselves to not reach the point of breaking with lost hopes and lost desires, lost significance and self-pity thoughts.
So what is the answer?
Do we not crave to be a simple magnetic product that appeals so irrationally to people we want so they act instinctively gravitating towards us without us having to do much brain work or physical work and still helpless with the results we wanted?
Confused?
Don’t get the point?
Perhaps in a certain hidden corner of our subconscious, we rather be the dump blonde or the dumb bimbo who turn heads and stir desires than to be the smart Harvard analyst who knows how everything works or the rich sugar daddy or rich sugar mummy who gets to splash the cash just to have our hands on anything we could ever dream for.
It is still as hollow as ever when you give in to the deep emotional lust you have hiding in that private little spot you lock up for who-knows-what.
We ain’t no perfect creature. We are humans. We have flaws and we crave for the wrong things or the right things for the wrong reasons. Take a silent moment to ourselves and reflect upon those values we set so rigidly to deny our rights to crave like a beast for blood, wins and sex.
Where do we stand as the king of all beasts?
What is the right balance of actions and freedom to take?
At what costs and stakes?
To what end?
For what will?
For love and our addiction to what we crave in silence.
I wish for public census in silence that we understand, we feel, we share and we accommodate.
Love, the big word for a tiny planet we call mother earth.