troubled..

life's a roller coaster ride..

for reasons i don't understand my energy depletes again..

why do i feel so small..

to learn that i am not competitive..

that i just want to feel more needed and wanted..

but only to find out i don't last long in a race that requires stamina and persistence..

emotional?

i need channels to pour out my emotions..

the extreme sides of my emotions..

i feel so numb now..

as if i'm paralyzed..

head heavier than ever..

and yet it's empty..

stress perhaps..

but the company is so good..

and the people are all so nice and kind..

i just don't have any reason to be stressed up..

emotional needs..

there are 5 types: fresh new things seeker, peace maker, love needer or people person, detail analyzer and aggressive decision maker.. they are define as O, N, R, A and D type emotional needs in Leonard Behavior Patterns..

what i learned in the past few days..

i can't think now..

i need a pal..

i need a tight warm hug that and perhaps a once in a lifetime pour..

too much expectation to meet..

too much norms to conform..

why do i feel so tired and directionless..

can i lay my forehead to yours and hope you can read my mind in silence..

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