Purpose? Working? Living?

if today is my last day alive, what would i do?

would i lay back in bed, inhale as much oxygen i can and feel as high as i can to tell myself i at least lived?

would i go to where i'd always go to whenever i have doubts and lost direction, which is cyber cafes with people playing and music loud?

would i walk out under the big hot sun and just observe and feel?

if you give me a chance to decide if i want to work on a purpose or die right now what would i choose?

ask me a simple question what am i doing for a living now and i don't even know how to answer you.

put a whole stack of newspaper in front of me now and i wouldn't even want to flip them because i don't see how it matters.

there's is no why.

it is the mindset.

positive or negative it is up to you to dictate.

you could pick up the phone now and dial a person and express how badly you want a job or an opportunity to feel good and feel worthy doing something.

but you can also walk around, surf around and feel bored not knowing where to start.

commitment and responsibility as well as obligations can indeed haunt you.

why can't you do one thing now and decide to do another the next day when you don't feel like doing it?

well, what if everyone does the same thing?

what is credibility then?

how will the world function as a system then?

what if your internet connection goes down now and you can't contact the service provider?

what if you can contact them and they say i'm off duty today, go call somebody else bye~

haha~

so this is work.

what has it got to do with my purpose living?

well i don't live alone in this world.

and because of that simple reason i need to have commitments and obligations to others to earn my fair share of trusts and services from them in return.

doesn't this make sense?

yea it does.

you are right. i just need a work now and make the most out of my days working. it doesn't matter if the work is meaningful to me now. i will find my worth out of the job as i put in more effort to make ends meet.

life is not meant to be easy. and it isn't about seeing the end that ultimately decides if we made any differences. it is the principles and the values we stood by and work for daily that gradually make a difference.