Feelings..

In school, teachers tell you it is not right to dislike another person..

That we should love each other no matter how different we are..

But when you grow up into an adult, the real world tells you a different story..

Because this is when you have adult feelings..

You started falling in love with people for no reasons..

You started wanting more than friendship..

You wanted to get close, intimate..

And the rules started to get gray..

You can no longer ask your mummy why you can not get what you want?

That all you wanted is the love from that person..

And nothing more than that..

But you just can't..

Because the person has no feelings for you..

You continue to ask why?

You ask am I not good enough?

You got confused..

You wanted to ask the person..

But he refused to answer your question..

He has the rights to ignore you..

Even to hate you or condemn you..

You don't understand why..

For you learned that that is the only thing you want from this life..

And you have no answers to how you can get him..

You started a journey of searching..

To find the lost world of love and intimacy..

The working world does not offer answer to that..

It is a professional arena where people deal with each other with manners, ethics, respect and decency..

People behave so artificially..

But to a certain extend that is good behavior and properly governed standards of practice..

You still feel lost..

Occasionally trying to improve yourself better..

But you know it does not really matter..

That no matter how perfect you are, the person you love owes no responsibility to love you in return..

It is just a mystery..

One that you crave understanding and to master in but defeated over and over again..

For who loves you you feel not, for who you love love you not.

So what is love?

They say it is give and take..

Whatever the world of Titanic?

Romeo and Juliet?

The one most important reason you live for?

Feeling..

Senses..

Intimacy..

Affection..

Assurance..

Love.

The final question is.. Why do you have feelings for him?