The Million Dollar Question

in search of purpose and meaning in life..

at some point of time you feel miserable because you can't link the big picture..

you can't see how your existence matter and you felt belittled because you know your place can anytime be replaced by somebody else..

as you began to aware of these negative thoughts, things started changing..

it's what in you that is changing that shapes the surrounding to reciprocate with your actions.

you slowly shrink while your biggest enemy emerges into a larger figure that threatens your existence further.

sometimes we aren't aware of it.

all because we are all too consumed by our own belief that we are not good..

nobody at this point of time seem to be convincing at all in getting us out of this dilemma..

they seem unreal or somehow not genuine with a hidden agenda behind them..

is that thought real?

it could and it could be not.

but all for what?

it doesn't matter and it shouldn't matter!

it boils back to the million dollar question.

the question that you should be asking yourself everyday without fail and consistently searching for it to make life beautiful for yourself.

what makes you feel good?

at the start of the day, what makes you feel good and energetic to wake up and embrace a new day?

during the day, what makes you feel good and continue running the extra mile?

at the end of the day, what makes you feel good to wrap the day and thankful about having went through that day and then ready to recharge yourself with a good night rest for another day?

had you even asked yourself about that?

do you know you have every right to own the feel good factor?

are you equipped with the skills to earn you the right to demand for the feel good factor?

know the costs and causes of your feel good factor and earn them.

remember that good things don't come to you easily.

you got to earn them.

and how so?

by leveraging on your best assets or talents, you can offer your best values to the world and expect something in return.


well what makes me feel good?

i feel good when i know my work is being appreciated and that people like me for being myself.

i feel good when i can put a smile on your face especially when you are not happy.

i feel good when i know you need me.

i feel good when i know my existence is not easily replaceable by others.

i feel good when i know it doesn't matter how imperfect i am and still you will treasure me and want to be a part of my life.

i feel good when i know at the end of the day, especially a bad day, i know where to go and support and love will be there without questioning me what went wrong, just a big warm hug and a sad frown watching me walk into your arms and say, "hey boy/ buddy, i know just how you feel right now.. don't think about it k? it's gonna be okay.. what could i do today to make you smile?"

aww..

how warm is that.. i wish i can give that love away again too..

i was very happy and never questioned about the meaning of life when i had all my best friends around me. all of them whom i had fun playing with and laughing with. until i gave importance to only one. and got little back from the rest. and when that particular friend on the other hand had a different priority and needed me not anymore.. it hurt. and it hurt me pretty badly without the person knowing how much was taken away from me.. i never seemed to be able to stand back up straight and pour out my love after.. because i knew how it hurts to lose the importance of being that special someone to somebody. forgotten that it was that me who was capable of caring and loving others without asking for anything in return that made me shine and cheerful and positive about life. how i was able to be so forgiving when it comes to juniors or kids because there is this part of my heart that will always feel sorry for not giving them enough chances to learn about life. maybe i really wasn't such a fortunate boy when i was a little child. i don't even remember much during my childhood..

no matter what i want to work in schools or education centers to give back. it is my calling and i will work towards that because it gives me most sense of accomplishments and happiness. the cost is high because i won't be earning as much as those working outside in the corporate world and i won't be able to live a luxurious lifestyle but at least i believe i will lead a meaningful one.

i hope you find yours too.


before i end this blog post, there are few more questions i would like to urge you to ask yourself.

do you like your job?

does your job give you a sense of satisfaction?

does your job give you a sense of accomplishment or a feeling that you are on the right track to reach where you want to go?

is the cost of your job taking away much of what matters to you or is it fair enough or more that what you can ask for?

are you making the most of what you can offer to the society and are you getting what you believe you are entitled to?

if ever you hate waking up in the morning and hate all together getting to office or completely lost hopes or the ability to give or love, you might want to take the risk of leaving that job and carefully plan for the next that will give you life.

best wishes ^^

at the end of everyday, i sure hope to see you feel good like this~